am i idiot ?

should i said myself  idiot?

should i said myself stupid ?

life~life~life~life

still got how long way to go?

this few days i find out im getting fat as before

starting feel im become so lazy,tired 

what thing make me become like this?

i cant control myself stop eating?

i cant stop myself make my time full?

what's the reason i do for it??

conclusion is :

i'm trying to escape the problem i facing now

how stupid am i !!

I admit im still love YOU

but i totally don't know what can i do for the rship again

i feel so sorry with myself and you too

because when you tell me,however how i do wrong 

you again and again forgive me because you love me

but again and again i make you disappointed and heart broken

im so sorry.

i need time to change .i need time to prove that i can do the better

sorry.. :(

i cant stop my tears keep droping now

sorry :(